courage

if there was one thing God could give me this year, that would be it.
far too long i've been watching everyone go by, my plans brought to a standstill by my diffident mind.
i'm too concerned with what others might think, im still sane, but just on the brink.
give me courage, show me the way, so i can see her smiling again one day.
only then will i be satisfied, and things wouldn't be so petrified.

pain is good

because at least you know you're alive.
so many times this year i've lost what i've treasured and they've never been returned. could you this once, just this once show me how?
I was made to fight for a noble cause, protect endangered animals from poachers, die for my country, help the less fortunate around me feel normal again. yet i am struggling to find you and answers to my perennial questions. from now on, i will leave no room for error, room to make that little mistake, a chance for efforts to fall through. this idiot has learnt his lesson.

freedom at last?

thank God for being with me for phy and chem papers! really convicted me that if we honour Him first, He will honour us.

promos have ended but the feeling is not exactly what i imagined it would be. sometimes it just sucks to have high expectations. now that "sianness" is creeping into my bones.
NO!!! that was the one thing i wanted to eradicate from my life! i had so many many things i wanted to do after the exams! but where have they gone?

lol think im being too dramatic. early days still!
but its usually such a thought which condemns us to be terrible stewards of our time isnt it.

okay better list down : D
1) do up my blog (someone HELP im a serious noob at this)
2) spend time with my sb's
3) catch up with old friends
4) learn guitar
5) improve eupho
6) Bandfest!
7) join ignyte soccer team!
8) Alumni concert?
9) OGL?

have you ever seen something so poignant that causes that dam holding back your emotions to just collapse?
for the first time for as long as i can remember, all of us wept. what a sight. such is the power of a father's love.
my words will not bring justice to such a story, so i'll hold it in my heart and cherish that collective outpouring of boyish empathy.