well its a start
hahah i cant believe i created a blog. well its not for anyone to see i guess. just makes it more convenient for me to express my feelings in words rather than keeping all of it in a diary bah.
and the thing is, im totally clueless about html and stuff so i'll just use the things that blogspot provides HAHA. im noob.
something weighing so heavily on my mind now is her. i once thought that we were so much alike, but now i discover the vast differences. and the one gap that is seemingly unbridgeable.
i want someone who shares the same heartbeat for god as me. someone who will spur forward in my walk with him. someone who will encourage me with the anointing of god rather than the things of the world. someone who i can share my whole life with and with the lord.
i know what god wants for me and i have decided to let it go. for john 12:24 says "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds."
therefore, by letting go, i will be able to release more of god's blessings into my life.
however, its so difficult and painful. everytime i feel that im convicted to let go, the memories return to haunt me. the seemingly beautiful and wonderful times we had, even though i know they were not what god wanted. i dont think i will ever forget those times - at least for the moment.
i prepared a special present for her just to cheer her up, but i guess the only place it'll ever go is in the rubbish.
because if i give it to her, it'll only give the wrong idea.
since she is already ignoring me and so busy with her own life, why should i make another stupid move which will only serve to complicate things?
even right now, there is such a aching in my heart, a tremendous longing for that someone which will should never be satisfied. i cant do anything else right now. oh lord give me strength.
we're in a spell that never ends
the empty hourglass wore me thin
so let the phone do it's work
your voice is heaven
but it hurts
your words are memories
but they burn
baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know I can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight
and the thing is, im totally clueless about html and stuff so i'll just use the things that blogspot provides HAHA. im noob.
something weighing so heavily on my mind now is her. i once thought that we were so much alike, but now i discover the vast differences. and the one gap that is seemingly unbridgeable.
i want someone who shares the same heartbeat for god as me. someone who will spur forward in my walk with him. someone who will encourage me with the anointing of god rather than the things of the world. someone who i can share my whole life with and with the lord.
i know what god wants for me and i have decided to let it go. for john 12:24 says "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds."
therefore, by letting go, i will be able to release more of god's blessings into my life.
however, its so difficult and painful. everytime i feel that im convicted to let go, the memories return to haunt me. the seemingly beautiful and wonderful times we had, even though i know they were not what god wanted. i dont think i will ever forget those times - at least for the moment.
i prepared a special present for her just to cheer her up, but i guess the only place it'll ever go is in the rubbish.
because if i give it to her, it'll only give the wrong idea.
since she is already ignoring me and so busy with her own life, why should i make another stupid move which will only serve to complicate things?
even right now, there is such a aching in my heart, a tremendous longing for that someone which will should never be satisfied. i cant do anything else right now. oh lord give me strength.
we're in a spell that never ends
the empty hourglass wore me thin
so let the phone do it's work
your voice is heaven
but it hurts
your words are memories
but they burn
baby just say goodnight
I'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
I can't take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know I can't stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight
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12:13 PM
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